CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

THE GUARDS TOOK ME STRAIGHT TO BOOKING. I CHANGED OUT OF MY CLOTHES AND PUT ON AN ORANGE JAIL UNIFORM!  AFTER A FEW HOURS, A NURSE ATTENDED TO MY OPEN HEAD WOUND. SHE RINSED IT WITH SALINE SOLUTION AND PUT A DRY GAUZE ON IT. I WAS PUT IN THE BACK OF THE PATTY WAGON WITH SEVERAL OTHER INMATES AND TAKEN TO SOUTH COUNTY JAIL IN FROSTPROOF! UPON MY ARRIVAL THEY TOOK ME TO THE MEDICAL POD AND I WAS GIVEN A THREE INCH THIN VINYL MATTRESS, A THIN BLANKET AND A VERY SMALL VINYL PILLOW. ALL OF THE BUNKS WERE FULL, SO THE GUARD GAVE ME A PLASTIC BUNK TO LAY ON CALLED A BOAT. I COULDN'T REMEMBER RHONDA'S NEW CELL PHONE NUMBER SO I CALLED MY SISTER AND NOTIFIED HER AS TO THE EVENTS THAT HAD TAKEN PLACE. THERE WERE TWO KIOSKS IN S MED FOR INMATES FOR TEXT MESSAGES. AFTER NOTIFYING RHONDA OF OUR UNFORTUNATE TURN OF EVENTS FROM THE JAIL PAY PHONE. WE SET UP OUR TEXT MESSAGE ACCOUNT. IT COST TWENTY FIVE CENTS FOR EACH MESSAGE OUT AND EACH INCOMING MESSAGE! NATURALLY RHONDA AND I WERE BOTH UPSET ABOUT THIS. THE BIG ISSUE WAS ANDRONETTE SULLIVAN AND HER DECEPTIVE. LEGAL MALPRACTICE BEHAVIOR! THAT WAS A REAL PROBLEM!

WE WERE NOT IN A GOOD POSITION BECAUSE ALL OF THE ATTORNEYS I INTERVIEWED TO REPRESENT MY CASE WANTED BETWEEN TEN THOUSAND DOLLARS TO AS MUCH AS TWENTY FIVE THOUSAND DOLLARS FOR A RETAINER FEE AND WE DIDN'T CURRENTLY HAVE IT. WE HAD SPENT ALL OF OUR SAVINGS LIVING IN MOTELS FOR MONTHS. I WAS TOLD BY SOME LAWYERS THEY WOULDN'T TAKE THE CASE BECAUSE THEY HAVE TO LIVE IN THE SAME COMMUNITY AS THE POLK COUNTY DEPUTIES! THEY DIDN'T THINK IT WOULD BE WISE OR SAFE FOR THEM OR THEIR FAMILIES.

THE FIRST FOUR DAYS WERE FILLED WITH THE MOST EXCRUCIATING, PHYSICAL PAIN BEYOND WHAT I COULD EVER IMAGINE! I WOULD BE CALLED INTO THE SMALL NURSES STATION. NURSE LINDA BROOM WOULD RIP THE DRESSING OFF MY CANCEROUS OPEN HEAD WOUND AND IT WAS VERY PAINFUL AND BLOODY. A TREMENDOUS AMOUNT OF FLESH WAS BEING TORE OFF AS IT WAS STUCK TO THE GAUZE! THEN SHE TOOK DRY GAUZE AND PUT IT ON HER KNUCKLES AND WITH TREMENDOUS PRESSURE SHE WOULD SCRUB AND SCRAPE THE BIG HOLE. THE SHARPEST PAIN IMAGINABLE WOULD DRIVE DOWN FROM MY HEAD ALL THE WAY TO MY FEET! I YELLED AT HER WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO ME! SHE SAID I HAVE TO SCRAPE ALL OF THAT OUT OF THERE. I SAID, ALL OF WHAT, THAT'S CANCER, YOU DON'T SCRAPE AWAY CANCER WITH DRY GAUZE. YOU ARE ONLY GOING TO IRRITATE IT. SHE WOULD CONTINUE TO SCRAPE AND SCRUB FOR A FEW MINUTES AT A TIME! I TRIED NOT TO MAKE ANY NOISE, BEING AWARE I WAS IN A JAIL, I DIDN'T WANT ANY INMATES TO HEAR ANYTHING, BUT THAT PAIN LITERALLY CAUSED ME TO SCREAM. THE INMATES KNEW THE TORTURE BEING INFLICTED ON ME. WHEN I WALKED BACK TO MY BUNK, MOST OF THEM HUNG THEIR HEADS OUT OF RESPECT. THEY KNEW WHAT WAS BEING DONE TO ME! NURSE BROOM ABUSED THE CANCEROUS OPEN HEAD WOUND FOR FOUR DAYS STRAIGHT.

ON THE NIGHT OF THE FOURTH DAY MY HEAD WRAP CAME OFF AND FIVE OF THE INMATES SAID LET US TAKE A LOOK AT IT. OH MY GOD! THEY EXCLAIMED WE CAN SEE YOUR SKULL. THEY SAID, SHE HAS SCRAPED IT ALL THE WAY TO YOUR SKULL MAN! I WENT TO THE SCRATCHED, FUZZY STAINLESS STEEL MIRROR TO LOOK. ALTHOUGH I COULDN'T SEE IT VERY WELL, IT APPEARED AS THOUGH THERE WERE BEING TRUTHFUL ABOUT THEIR OBSERVATION! THEY ALL SAID I SHOULD BE IN A HOSPITAL UNDER THE CIRCUMSTANCES!

THE GREATEST HARDSHIP FOR ME WASN'T JUST THE PHYSICAL PAIN. RHONDA AND I HAD NOT BEEN APART IN ALL OF OUR TEN YEARS TOGETHER, EXCEPT MY INITIAL SEVEN DAYS OF INCARCERATION! I MISSED HER TREMENDOUSLY! I SAID LORD, YOU ARE MY SAVIOR AND MY CLOSEST FRIEND! GOD YOU ARE MY FATHER AND HOLY SPIRIT YOU ARE MY HELPER. I BELIEVE WITH ALL MY HEART YOU GUIDED ME TO EXPOSE ALL OF THE WICKEDNESS OF FAROOQ, STEPHANIE , RAM, SONNY, MENA, RAJ, KUSH, AND ALL OF THEM WHO ARE HURTING AMERICANS AND CHRISTIANS. RHONDA AND I ARE BOTH LIVING PROOF OF WHAT THEY ARE DOING! THEY HAVE TRIED TO KILL US A FEW TIMES ALREADY, SIMPLY BECAUSE I SAID IF THEY ARE HURTING AMERICANS, CHRISTIANS, OR JEWS I WILL HAVE THE FBI RIP THEM UP FROM THE ROOTS. THAT IS MY BIG CRIME. STATING I WILL PROTECT THESE THREE GROUPS OF PEOPLE! 

I AM VERY AWARE THAT WHEN GOD CALLS SOME OF US TO ACCOMPLISH CERTAIN THINGS SOMETIMES IT'S NOT SAFE, BUT IT IS ALWAYS RIGHT. I CONSIDERED WHAT PAUL AND THE DISCIPLES WENT THOUGH AND SOME OF US GO THOUGH IT TOO! THAT'S ONE OF THE REASONS WHY RHONDA AND I DESIRE TO OPERATE MOTELS AND GO INTO THE HIGHWAYS AND HEDGES, AND COMPEL THEM TO COME IN. IT'S NOT EASY. WE REACH THE PEOPLE NO ONE ELSE SEEMS WILLING TO REACH! BUT IT'S OUR CALLING! YOU CALLED US TO REACH A LOST AND DYING WORLD. NO GREATER LOVE THAN TO LAY YOUR LIFE DOWN FOR A FRIEND! I WAS UPSET ABOUT BEING INCARCERATED IN THIS QUAGMIRE!  AS I REFLECTED ON WHAT JESUS WENT THROUGH. I WAS THINKING ABOUT THE CROWN OF THORNS JAMMED INTO HIS HEAD AND INTO HIS SKULL! HOW UNBEARABLY PAINFUL THAT MUST HAVE BEEN. I'VE BEEN GETTING A SLIGHT TASTE OF THAT PAIN ALONG WITH THE PAIN OF FALSE ACCUSATIONS AND TREMENDOUS REJECTION OF MY COUNTRY THAT I LOVE AND WAS TRYING TO PROTECT! I WAS EXPERIENCING ONE TENTH OF ONE PERCENT OF WHAT THE LORD WENT THROUGH FOR ME! I NEEDED TO PRAY MY WAY OUT OF A VERY DEPRESSED EMOTION! 

ON THE FIFTH MORNING I LOOKED AROUND AT THE OVER CROWDED MEDICAL UNIT OF INMATES DRESSED IN ORANGE AND I WAS VERY AWARE THAT THIS WAS A HARVEST FIELD OF PEOPLE WHO ARE IN TROUBLE! SOME INMATES HAVE AN ABSOLUTE CRIMINAL MIND AND DIDN'T CARE IF THEY WERE IN OR OUT OF JAIL. SOME OF THESE MEN MOCKED AND MADE FUN OF THEIR SITUATION, PERHAPS THAT IS HOW THEY MASKED THEIR INNER DISAPPOINTMENT IN THEMSELVES. MANY OF THEM WERE PLOTTING THEIR NEXT CRIME TOGETHER AS SOON AS THEY GET RELEASED! EVERYONE OF THEM HAD ONE THING IN COMMON AND THEY CAN'T CHANGE IT. I WAS RECALLING MY DREAM OF STEPPING OUT OF A WHITE VAN WITH MEN DRESSED IN ORANGE UNIFORMS AND A RIPE GREEN VALLEY READY FOR HARVEST. EACH INDIVIDUAL IN THIS PLACE WILL ONE DAY STAND BEFORE ALMIGHTY GOD, AND GIVE AN ACCOUNT FOR THEIR LIVES! SOME OF THESES MEN ARE ATHEISTS, TO SOME, GOD IS FAR AWAY AND HE DOESN'T CARE ABOUT THEM AND TO SOME HE IS A FATHER! IT'S APPOINTED FOR A MAN ONCE TO DIE, THEN COMES THE JUDGEMENT! WHEN THE INEVITABLE TIME COMES. ALL OF US WILL STAND BEFORE OUR AWESOME CREATOR AND HE WILL SEARCH THE PAGES OF HIS FAMILY ALBUM, THE LAMBS BOOK OF LIFE, LOOKING FOR EACH OF OUR NAMES. WHEN HE FINDS OUR NAME, THE LORD WILL DECLARE WITH JOY! WELL DONE MY GOOD AND FAITHFUL SERVANT, ENTER INTO THE JOY OF THE LORD! TO THE INDIVIDUAL WHOSE NAME IS NOT FOUND IN THE LAMBS BOOK OF LIFE, THEY WILL HEAR THE MOST HORRIFYING ETERNAL WORDS EVER. YOUR NAME IS NOT IN MY FAMILY ALBUM! THERE IS ONLY ONE OTHER FAMILY YOU BELONG TO. DEPART FROM ME, I NEVER KNEW YOU! THOSE INDIVIDUALS WILL SPEND AN EVERLASTING ETERNITY IN HELL, WHERE THE FLAME NEVER DIES AND THE WORM NEVER BURNS! TOMORROW IS NOT PROMISED TO ANYONE, AND MANY OF THESE INMATES ARE PLAYING RUSSIAN ROULETTE WITH THEIR ETERNITY! I MADE A DECISION! GOD MUST HAVE ME HERE FOR A REASON. I HAD NO ARGUMENT WITH GOD. THE APOSTLE PAUL WAS STONED AND CARRIED OUT OF THE CITY AND LEFT FOR DEAD BECAUSE OF TELLING THE TRUTH. THREE TIMES HE WAS SHIPWRECKED, FIVE TIMES HE RECEIVED 39 STRIPES, THREE TIMES HE WAS BEATEN WITH RODS AND WAS IMPRISONED OFTEN! MY FLESH DIDN'T LIKE THE SITUATION AT ALL. BUT I COULDN'T ALLOW MY FLESH TO LEAD ME! I NEEDED TO KEEP WALKING IN THE SPIRIT! FOR ALL WHO ARE LED BY THE SPIRIT OF GOD ARE THE SONS OF GOD. ROMANS 8:14

I WAS CONCERNED ABOUT RHONDA. AT LEAST SHE WAS IN A SAFE PLACE WITH AN INCOME AND HAD A GOOD MANAGEMENT POSITION AND NOBODY KNEW HER PHYSICAL LOCATION. IT WAS VITALLY IMPORTANT THAT SHE REMAINED INCOGNITO! WE COMMUNICATED BY TEXT ON AN AVERAGE OF FIVE TIMES PER DAY.  OUR PRIMARY DISCUSSION CONCENTRATED ON HOW MUCH WE MISS EACH OTHER AND MAKING SURE SHE HAD DOCUMENTATION OF THE INADEQUATE MEDICAL TREATMENT I WAS RECEIVING. RHONDA ALWAYS RINSED MY WOUND WITH SALINE SOLUTION AND WITH WOUND WASH! AS SOON AS IT DRIED, SHE WOULD APPLY ANTIBIOTIC OINTMENT TO A GAUZE PAD AND BANDAGE IT. THAT'S EXACTLY HOW LAKELAND REGIONAL MEDICAL CENTER TREATED IT AS WELL.

I REQUESTED NURSE BROOM TO USE THE SAME APPROACH FOR TREATMENT! SHE REFUSED TO GIVE ME PROPER CARE. SHE WOULD DIP LONG STRIPS OF THIN GAUZE INTO SALINE SOLUTION AND THEN ROLL IT INTO BALLS AND PACK IT INTO MY CANCEROUS OPEN HEAD WOUND, THEN WRAP MY HEAD VERY TIGHT WITH A HEAD WRAP. THE PAIN WAS UNBELIEVABLE AND CONSTANT ALL DAY AND ALL NIGHT! I EXPRESSED THAT THIS WAS A HIGH LEVEL OF PAIN TO BOTH DR RODRIGUEZ AND NURSE BROOM. THEY REFUSED TO PROVIDE A TYLENOL OR ANYTHING! THEY CONTINUALLY IGNORED MY REQUEST FOR PROPER CARE AND TREATMENT! SOMETIMES I HAD TO WAIT BETWEEN 34 TO 54 HOURS BEFORE THE WOUND WAS CLEANED AND TREATED. THE PROCEDURE WAS NOTHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO. THE BALLS OF GAUZE MESH INTO THE CANCER, FLESH AND THE WOUND AND SETS UP LIKE CONCRETE! WHEN THE DRESSING WAS CHANGED IT WAS INCREDIBLY PAINFUL AND BLOODY TO REMOVE. IT ALWAYS HAD TO BE TORN OUT, CAUSING DAMAGE TO THE OPEN WOUND. WHEN I FIRST ARRIVED THE WOUND WAS 3 CENTIMETERS IN DIAMETER! IN A SHORT PERIOD IT MEASURED OVER 6 CENTIMETERS IN DIAMETER! IN FRONT OF OFFICER CARVER, I SAID TO NURSE BROOM, I NEED YOU TO STOP TREATING MY WOUND IN THIS MANNER, YOU ARE IRRITATING THE CANCER AND MAKING IT MUCH WORSE. IN ADDITION IT WAS VERY PAINFUL AND I NEEDED ASPIRIN OR A TYLENOL OR SOMETHING! NURSE BROOM SHOUTED, STOP COMPLAINING! OTHER PEOPLE THAT HAD BEEN IN HERE HAVE HAD CANCER FAR WORSE THAN YOU, AND SOME OF THEM HAVE DIED IN HERE! I LOOKED AT OFFICER CARVER AND HE ROLLED HIS EYES BACK IN HIS HEAD AS IF TO SAY, I CAN'T BELIEVE SHE JUST SAID THAT TO YOU!

I FINALLY RECEIVED MY OWN BUNK AND SECURED A BIBLE. I DECIDED TO FAST AND PRAY AS OFTEN AS I COULD. I NEEDED TO BE SUBMITTED TO THE LORD IN EVERYTHING BECAUSE THIS WAS CREATING A LOT OF STRESS ON MY BODY. I SPENT MOST OF MY TIME UNDER MY BLANKET, PRAYING. I TOLD THE LORD, OK, IT'S TIME TO ENTER OUR TENT OF MEETING! I PRAYED WITHOUT CEASING FOR HOURS AND SANG PRAISES! WE WRESTLE NOT AGAINST FLESH AND BLOOD, BUT AGAINST PRINCIPALITIES, AGAINST POWERS, AGAINST THE RULERS OF THE DARKNESS OF THIS WORLD, AGAINST SPIRITUAL WICKEDNESS IN HIGH PLACES! EPHESIANS 6:12 THIS WAS PROVING OUT TO BE AN ALL STAR WRESTLING MATCH OF BIBLICAL PROPORTION FOR ME! AS I BEGAN TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO MANEUVER AROUND IN THE JAIL I FOUND OUT WAYS TO GET BIBLES. ALMOST EVERY THURSDAY A GENTLEMAN CAME IN FROM THE OUTSIDE AND HELD A BIBLE STUDY FOR AN HOUR AND A HALF! I APPRECIATED WHAT HE IS DOING FOR ALL OF US! HE WAS IN HIS UPPER 70'S. BOTH HE AND HIS WIFE FORMERLY OPERATED A MISSIONARY IN MEXICO FOR 40 YEARS AND I REALLY APPRECIATED HIS VOLUNTEERING TO COME AND SHARE THE GOSPEL! I DIDN'T SPEND MUCH TIME VISITING WITH HIM PERSONALLY AS IT WAS APPARENT OTHER INMATES REALLY NEEDED HIS ATTENTION!

I FASTED SOME TIMES FOR THREE OR FOUR DAYS IN A ROW. I TOOK MY TRAYS OF FOOD AND GAVE THEM TO WHOEVER WAS STILL HUNGRY! I WAS FINDING A BLESSING AS I HAD THE PRIVILEGE TO PRAY FOR INMATES WHO RECOGNIZED THEY NEEDED THE LORD! I HAD MADE A PARTICULAR ADJUSTMENT TO MY SITUATION, BUT I WOULD MUCH RATHER BE HOME. I WENT ON A SIX DAY FAST WITH NO FOOD OR WATER! I DECIDED I REALLY NEEDED TO HONOR THE LORD AT THIS DIFFICULT TIME. I WAS GETTING A SMALL TASTE OF WHAT JESUS WENT THROUGH FOR ME. SO I WROTE HIM A SONG OF PRAISE. I HAD A HEAVY HEART WITH ALL THAT WAS GOING ON. I HAD BEEN EXPERIENCING A LITTLE TASTE OF WHAT THE LORD WENT THROUGH AND I SO DEVELOPED A MUCH BIGGER APPRECIATION OF WHAT JESUS VOLUNTARILY DID FOR ME! I NEEDED HIM TO KNOW HOW I FELT. HERE IS MY SONG TO THE LORD!

OH LORD I LOVE YOU EACH AND EVERYDAY!
OH LORD I LOVE YOU IN A VERY SPECIAL WAY!

PLEASE COME AND TOUCH ME, I NEED YOU THE MOST!
PLEASE COME AND FILL ME WITH THE HOLY GHOST!

OH LORD I LOVE YOU EACH AND EVERY DAY!
I KNOW YOU ARE THE TRUTH, THE LIFE, THE WAY!

HOLY SPIRIT, INTERCEDE THROUGH ME TODAY!
SOMETIMES IT'S HARD, I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY!
OH LORD I LOVE YOU, I ALWAYS HAVE TO PRAY!

OH LORD I LOVE YOU EACH AND EVERYDAY!
OH LORD I LOVE YOU, WHAT ELSE IS THERE TO SAY!
OH LORD I LOVE YOU REFRESH MY HEART TODAY!
OH LORD I THANK YOU FOR VICTORY TODAY!

THANK YOU FATHER, SON AND HOLY GHOST,
IN YOU I HAVE FAITH, HOPE AND LOVE THE MOST!

OH LORD I LOVE YOU EACH AND EVERY DAY!
OH LORD I LOVE YOU, YOU NEVER TURN AWAY!
HOLY SPIRIT LAND ON ME LIKE A DOVE,

COME AND FILL ME WITH GOD'S POWER AND HIS LOVE!
OH LORD I LOVE YOU EACH AND EVERYDAY!
OH LORD I LOVE YOU IN A VERY SPECIAL WAY!

I WAS SPEAKING TO MYSELF IN PSALMS AND HYMNS AND SPIRITUAL SONGS, SINGING AND MAKING MELODY TO THE LORD. EPHESIANS 5:19

RHONDA AND I KEPT TEXTING BACK AND FORTH DAILY. LATER IT WOULD PROVE THAT WE MADE SOME VERY SERIOUS STRATEGIC ERRORS WITH OUR COMMUNICATION THAT PUT HER IN DANGER!

ULTIMATELY THE RESULTS FROM OUR TEXTING EACH OTHER WERE DEVASTATING FOR EACH OF US PERMANENTLY!

AS BEST FRIENDS AND A COUPLE, SADLY, WE WOULD NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN! 

I MENTIONED IN A FEW TEXT MESSAGES THAT RHONDA NEEDED TO MAIL HER CELL PHONE TO A  DATA RECOVERY SERVICE IN MIAMI. THEY ARE THE SAME COMPANY THAT STRIPPED HILLARY CLINTON'S ILLEGAL SERVER! PRIOR TO MY INCARCERATION, I WAS IN COMMUNICATION WITH THEM AND THEY ASSURED ME THEY CAN DIGITALLY EXTRACT THE VIDEO THAT DEPUTY KUSH ERASED! THEY TOLD ME THEY HAVE A 98 PERCENT SUCCESS RATE OF RECOVERY! 

I WANT TO GET RELEASED FROM JAIL. I DIDN'T PARTICULARLY ENJOY GOING TO THE BATHROOM WITH OTHER MEN SITTING NEXT TO ME FOR VERY OBVIOUS REASONS. NOT TO MENTION EVERY OTHER REASON THAT PEOPLE DON'T LIKE BEING INCARCERATED! I ALSO NEEDED TO PREPARE FOR A PROPER LEGAL DEFENSE! THE MEDICAL UNIT PROVIDED KIOSKS WHICH WERE PROGRAMMED WITH A LAW LIBRARY. SO I BEGAN DOING RESEARCH AND WRITING DOWN LEGAL TERMS. YOU HAVE TO BE AS RESOURCEFUL AS POSSIBLE IN JAIL!  SO I HAD TO DO SOME HORSE TRADING TO GET A PENCIL AND SOME PAPER. FOOD IS A HUGE BARGAINING TOOL! THAT WAS EASY FOR ME AS I WAS FASTING OFTEN!

I WAS CALLED BY THE GUARDS TO GO TO THE LAWYERS BOOTH. UPON MY ARRIVAL, MUCH TO MY DISMAY WAS ANDRONETTE SULLIVAN. OUR VISIT WAS BRIEF AND I REQUESTED AS MY LAWYER, ASK THE JUDGE TO GRANT ME A MEDICAL RELEASE AS MY OPEN CANCEROUS HEAD WOUND WAS GROWING RAPIDLY! I WAS LEGITIMATELY CONCERNED OF MY WELFARE! MY VISIT WITH HER WAS NON PRODUCTIVE TO SAY THE LEAST! SHE NEVER DID PRESENT MY MEDICAL REQUEST BEFORE THE JUDGE!

AS TIME WENT BY SOME OF THE INMATES CAME TO ME AND WOULD ASK IF THEY CAN SIT AT THE END OF MY BUNK AND VISIT?  I RESPOND OF COURSE YOU CAN. THEY TOLD ME. PEOPLE SAY YOU KNOW HOW TO PRAY! I SAID YES, I BELIEVE IN PRAYER. PRAYER BRINGS RESULTS! I SAID YOU CAN PRAY ON YOUR OWN, PRAYER IS TALKING TO GOD! THEY ASKED ME TO PRAY WITH THEM. MY RESPONSE WAS ALWAYS THE SAME, I WOULD BE HONORED TO PRAY WITH YOU! THE QUESTION I HAD WAS, IS JESUS YOUR LORD AND SAVIOR? THEN WE WOULD TAKE IT FROM THERE. GET A BIBLE I WOULD TELL THEM. GET TO KNOW YOUR GOD AND START IN THE NEW TESTAMENT! IF YOU DON'T HAVE A BIBLE, I'LL SCROUNGE ONE UP FOR YOU! STUDY TO SHOW YOURSELF APPROVED UNTO GOD, A WORKMAN THAT NEED NOT BE ASHAMED, RIGHTLY DIVIDING THE WORD OF TRUTH. 2 TIMOTHY 2:15 GOD IS A REWARDER OF THOSE WHO DILIGENTLY SEEK HIM. HEBREWS 11:6

THE GUARDS CALLED ME TO THE ATTORNEY BOOTH AGAIN. IT WAS NOT ANDRONETTE SULLIVAN! THIS TIME IT WAS DR ALLISON TARBOX. WE VISITED FOR APPROXIMATELY 25 MINUTES. IT WAS 3:00 IN THE AFTERNOON AND SHE KEPT LOOKING AT HER WATCH. SHE DIDN'T HAVE A BUSINESS CARD OR ANY CREDENTIALS WITH HER. SHE BROUGHT BLANK SHEETS OF PAPER! NO QUESTIONNAIRE FORMS. SHE WAS UNPREPARED AND VERY UNPROFESSIONAL! SHE ASKED ME IF I KNOW WHAT A JUDGE DOES, A JURY, THE ROLE OF A PROSECUTOR, WHO IS THE PUBLIC DEFENDER, HOW DOES A PERSON BEHAVE IN COURT. WE DISCUSSED THE BRUTAL ASSAULT FROM DEPUTY ALLAN KUSH. HER FINAL TWO QUESTIONS WERE, WOULD I EXCEPT A PLEA BARGAIN. I SAID NO I WON'T. I AM NOT GUILTY OF THE FALSE ACCUSATIONS OF DEPUTY ALLAN KUSH! WHILE LOOKING INTENTLY AT HER WATCH, DR TARBOX ASKED ME IF I TRUSTED MY PUBLIC DEFENDER. I SAID ABSOLUTELY NOT! SHE HAS BEEN DELIBERATELY MISLEADING JUDGE ABDONEY AND MISLEADING BOTH OF US FROM DAY ONE. SHE REFUSED TO TAKE MY STATEMENT OF EVENTS. SHE WILL NOT INTERVIEW RHONDA WHO IS MY KEY EYE WITNESS, AND SHE CORROBORATES MY VERSION OF EVENTS!  MORE IMPORTANTLY, IN ADDITION MS SULLIVAN REFUSED TO SUBPOENA THE SECURITY VIDEOS FROM THE SHERIFF'S STATION PROVING MY INNOCENCE WHILE INDICTING ALLAN KUSH! MS SULLIVAN HAD DEMONSTRATED SHE DIDN'T REPRESENT ME, BUT REPRESENTS THE STATE PROSECUTOR MR WILLIAM KELLER AND WAS TRYING VERY HARD TO PUSH THE DEPUTIES FALSE NARRATIVE! I PROVIDED DR TARBOX WITH RHONDA'S CELL NUMBER IN THE EVENT SHE WANTED TO CALL HER AND INQUIRE ABOUT ME BEING A COMPETENT INDIVIDUAL. I HAD ABSOLUTELY NO PROBLEM WITH THAT! AT 3:25PM, WE CONCLUDED THE EVALUATION! SHE SEEMED TO BE IN A HURRY. MY GUESS IS SHE WANTED TO BEAT INTERSTATE RUSH HOUR TRAFFIC BACK TO ST PETERSBURG.

AFTER RETURNING TO S MED I WENT TO THE KIOSK AND SENT RHONDA A TEXT MESSAGE AND INFORMED HER OF THE EVALUATION. I SUGGESTED IF SHE RECEIVED AN UNKNOWN CALL FROM A PINELLAS COUNTY AREA CODE TO ANSWER IT, MOST LIKELY IT WOULD BE FROM DR. ALLISON TARBOX. TELL HER ONLY THE TRUTH. DON'T SUGAR COAT ANYTHING! TELL HER ABOUT YOUR OBSERVATIONS OF MS SULLIVAN AS WELL! I SAID THE EVALUATION WENT AS IT SHOULD, I ANSWERED ALL OF HER QUESTIONS WITH PROPER DEFINITIONS AND LEGALESE! I EXPLAINED TO RHONDA, I INFORMED DR TARBOX THAT I WILL NOT EXCEPT A PLEA BARGAIN AND I HAVE BEEN GIVEN ABSOLUTELY NO REASON TO TRUST MS SULLIVAN, MY PUBLIC DEFENDER! 

BOTH RHONDA AND I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE A GOOD IDEA IF I GAVE RHONDA DURABLE POWER OF ATTORNEY! I TOLD HER I WILL SEND IT TO HER, I NEEDED HER ADDRESS. I SAID JUST GIVE ME THE BUILDING NUMBER AND NOTHING MORE. I HAVE THE REST MEMORIZED, I TOLD HER! I DON'T WANT ANYONE WHO READS THIS TEXT TO KNOW YOUR LOCATION! IT IS NOT SAFE IF YOU DO! RHONDA MADE ONE OF THE BIGGEST MISTAKES OF HER LIFE. SHE TEXT ME HER EXACT ADDRESS IN ITS ENTIRETY! I TEXT HER BACK AND SAID THAT WASN'T SMART. NOW DEPUTY KUSH KNEW HER LOCATION AND SURELY HE WILL NOTIFY FAROOQ! UNFORTUNATELY THIS ULTIMATELY PROVED TO HAVE DEVASTATING RESULTS!

                                                                                  

                                                                              CHAPTER NINETEEN

I TOLD NURSE BROOM, SHE WAS NO LONGER TEARING OUT THAT GAUZE PAD. FROM NOW ON I WILL HANG MY HEAD IN THE SHOWER UNDER HOT WATER UNTIL IT SOFTENS AND I CAN GENTLY PULL IT OFF. I TOLD HER. THIS PROCEDURE WOULD TAKE ABOUT THREE TO FIVE MINUTES. AT ONE POINT THE GAUZE WAS SO STUCK IT BLED A LOT AND THE PAIN LEVEL WAS SO HIGH I ALMOST PASSED OUT. TWO INMATES RAN INTO THE SHOWER AND WALKED ME TO THE NURSE!

THE GUARDS INFORMED ME I HAD A MEDICAL TRIP TO WATSON CLINIC. IT HAD BEEN OVER THIRTY FIVE DAYS SINCE MY INCARCERATION AND I DESPERATELY NEEDED PROPER MEDICAL ATTENTION. I WAS TRANSPORTED TO CENTRAL BOOKING AND WAITED A COUPLE HOURS. I WAS HANDCUFFED TO A CHAIN AROUND MY WAIST AND PUT INTO LEG SHACKLES! TWO FEMALE GUARDS TRANSPORTED ME TO THE CANCER CLINIC. WE CAME IN THROUGH THE BACK ENTRANCE! I SHUFFLED MY WAY TO THE WAITING ROOM, WE WAITED DOWN STAIRS FOR A LITTLE WHILE IN THE WAITING ROOM. IT WAS UNCOMFORTABLE AS PEOPLE LOOKED AT ME AS IF I WAS A REAL CRIMINAL. THEN WE TOOK THE ELEVATOR TO THE NEXT FLOOR AND I SAT IN THE WAITING ROOM. TWO MORE GUARDS CAME OVER AND STOOD NEAR ME. I SAID TO MYSELF THIS WAS SO RIDICULOUS, AND HUMILIATING. PEOPLE WERE STARING AT ME AND YET TRYING NOT TO STARE. I WAS THINKING THEY PROBABLY WONDER WHAT THIS TERRIBLE CRIMINAL WAS GUILTY OF. IT REALLY BOTHERED MY HEART. IF THEY ONLY KNEW THE TRUTH. ONE OF THE GUARDS THAT BROUGHT ME THERE MADE COMMENT THAT SHE DIDN'T UNDERSTAND WHY WE WERE SITTING THERE. SHE SAID, I HAVE BEEN TAKING INMATES HERE FOR YEARS. THIS IS THE FIRST TIME WE DIDN'T TAKE SOMEONE STRAIGHT INTO AN EXAMINATION ROOM. WE WAITED FOR 20 MINUTES BEFORE THEY SHUFFLED ME TO AN EXAMINATION ROOM! THE ONCOLOGIST TOOK BIOPSIES OF MY CANCEROUS OPEN HEAD WOUND. I WAS HANDED CARE INSTRUCTIONS AND THEY ALSO FORWARDED INSTRUCTIONS FOR CARE TO S MED! THE APPROACH TO PROPER CARE WAS THE SAME AS RHONDA. RINSE THE AREA WITH SALINE SOLUTION, THEN APPLY A GAUZE WITH ANTIBIOTIC OINTMENT. THEY ALSO ORDERED TYLENOL TWICE PER DAY!

RHONDA WAS PLEASED TO FIND OUT I WAS TAKEN TO THE CLINIC NOW WE JUST NEED TO WAIT A COUPLE OF WEEKS FOR THE RESULTS OF THE BIOPSY! EVERY TIME WE TEXT EACH OTHER WE EXPRESS HOW MUCH WE MISS EACH OTHER. SHE TOLD ME THAT DR. TARBOX CALLED HER AND SAID SHE TOLD HER THE PLAIN TRUTH OF WHAT HAS BEEN GOING ON!

I KEPT ENCOURAGING INMATES AND PRAYING WITH SOME OF THEM. IT WAS A BLESSING TO GIVE THEM BIBLES. I TOLD MARK AN INMATE IN THE BUNK NEXT TO ME, I WANTED TO START A PRAYER GROUP. HE AGREED IT WAS A GOOD IDEA. SO WE DID.

IN THE MEANTIME I WAS INFORMED I HAD A COMPETENCY HEARING! I CAN'T WAIT TO GET THIS OVER WITH. I TEXT RHONDA AND TOLD HER I HAVE MY COMPETENCY HEARING COMING UP, REMEMBER, THE JUDGE SAID ONCE I PASS THE EVALUATION I WILL BE RELEASED FROM JAIL!. 

I WAS BROUGHT TO THE COURTHOUSE AND MARCHED DOWN TO WHAT I REFERRED TO AS THE CAGES. IT WAS VERY COLD DOWN THERE! WHILE I WAITED I WAS CONTEMPLATING WHAT I WANTED TO SAY TO THE JUDGE! I WAS EXCITED BECAUSE WHEN HE ANNOUNCES I AM COMPETENT I WILL BE RELEASED FROM JAIL! WHEN THE OPPORTUNITY ARISES. I WILL TAKE THIS TIME TO INFORM THE JUDGE I WANTED ANDRONETTE SULLIVAN REMOVED FROM MY CASE DO TO IRRECONCILABLE DIFFERENCES AND REQUEST REGIONAL COUNCIL OR I WILL REPRESENT MYSELF, PRO SE! I WAS BROUGHT INTO THE COURTROOM AND STOOD BY MS SULLIVAN. SHE INSTRUCTED THE GUARD TO HAVE ME SIT IN THE JURY SECTION. I SAT QUIETLY AND THE JUDGE SPOKE SO QUIETLY I COULD HARDLY HEAR HIM. HE NEVER LOOKED AT ME WHILE HE ADDRESSED MS SULLIVAN. THE ONLY TIME HE SPOKE LOUD ENOUGH FOR ME TO HEAR HIM WAS AT THE END WHEN HE SAID I FIND THAT YOU ARE INCOMPETENT TO PROCEED AND I SENTENCE YOU TO 6 MONTHS TO AN EVALUATION TREATMENT CENTER! YOUR NEXT COURT DATE WILL BE IN DECEMBER! I COULDN'T BELIEVE MY EARS! I WAS BROUGHT BACK TO ONE OF THE CAGES AND TOLD I HAD TO WAIT FOR MY PUBLIC DEFENDER. ANDRONETTE SULLIVAN CAME DOWN AND SAID. "WELL, THEY ARE GOING TO FILL YOU WITH ALL KIND OF DRUGS UNTIL YOU LEARN TO THINK STRAIGHT". I TOLD HER I DON'T DO DRUGS AND CERTAINLY DON'T HAVE ANY INTENTIONS OF TAKING ANY DRUGS. I SAID WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO EXPLAIN TO JUDGE ABDONEY, I LIVE IN ORLANDO AND I DON'T LIVE IN ST. PETERSBURG! MS SULLIVAN LAUGHED OUT LOUD AT ME AND SAID, WHY WOULD I DO THAT? THEN SHE WALKED AWAY!

I RETURNED TO SOUTH COUNTY JAIL AND IMMEDIATELY TEXT RHONDA THE OUTCOME. NEEDLESS TO SAY SHE WAS VERY UPSET AND BEWILDERED AS WAS I. THIS WHOLE UNMERITED SITUATION IS AN OUTRAGE. IT IS ABSOLUTELY UNCONSCIONABLE! I ACTUALLY WENT SILENT FOR THREE DAYS. I NEEDED TO KEEP MY HEART RIGHT WITH THE LORD, BUT I WAS ANGRY! I NEEDED TO GUARD OVER WHAT I WANTED TO SAY! SO I REMAINED SILENT AND SPOKE TO NO ONE. NO PRAYER, NO WORDS! NOTHING!

I WAS INSTRUCTED TO GO VISIT WITH THE ARNP. APPARENTLY HE RECEIVED MY BIOPSY REPORT. HE EXPLAINED THE BIOPSY SHOWED THE CANCER WAS BASAL CELL CARCINOMA AND SQUAMOUS CANCER!  I TEXT RHONDA AND WE DISCUSSED FURTHER, JUDGE ABDONEY'S IGNORANT DECISION. SHE COULDN'T BELIEVE IT. I TOLD HER OF THE CANCER AS WELL. RHONDA SAID SHE HAD SCHEDULED AN APPOINTMENT TO COME VISIT ME. I ALWAYS TOLD HER NOT TO BOTHER DRIVING ALL THE WAY HERE FOR A HALF HOUR VISIT, BUT SHE WAS INSISTENT AND SAID SHE MUST SEE ME. SHE MISSED ME SO MUCH! I HAVE TO SEE YOU, SHE SAID. I'LL BE THERE TOMORROW MORNING! I TOLD HER GREAT. I WAS SO EXCITED TO SEE HER.

AT 2:00 IN THE MORNING, SOMEONE WAS KICKING MY BUNK! IT WAS A GUARD. HE SAID GATHER YOUR BELONGINGS YOU ARE LEAVING RIGHT NOW! I ASKED WHERE AM I GOING? HE REPLIED YOU YOU'LL FIND OUT SOON ENOUGH! I WAS TAKEN TO BOOKING AND HELD IN A CELL UNTIL 4:00AM. I WAS HANDCUFFED TO A CHAIN AROUND MY WAIST AND PUT IN LEG SHACKLES AND PUT INTO THE BACK OF A PATTY WAGON. THE OFFICER INFORMED MR HE WAS TAKING ME TO SOUTH FLORIDA TO HOMESTEAD. THE RIDE WAS A FEW HOURS LONG. I SAT ON A STEEL BENCH FOR ABOUT AN HOUR. I FOUND A SMALL EMPTY GATORADE BOTTLE SO I LAID DOWN ON THE FLOOR AND USED IT AS A PILLOW. I TRIED TO SLEEP FOR ABOUT AN HOUR AND A HALF. IT WAS A ROUGH RIDE DOWN.

                                                                                  CHAPTER TWENTY

WE ARRIVED AT 8:30AM AND I WAS ESCORTED INTO SOUTH FLORIDA EVALUATION TREATMENT CENTER. I WAS GIVEN A PAIR OF JEANS, A T-SHIRT AND SANDALS. THE GUARDS HANDED ME A TOWEL AND A BAR OF SOAP AND PUT ME IN A CELL. I TOOK A COLD SHOWER WITH A LITTLE BAR OF SOAP AND PUT ON THE CLOTHES THEY GAVE ME. THEY TOOK PHOTOS OF ME AND MY HEAD WOUND. THEN I WAS BROUGHT INTO A ROOM WERE I MET A PSYCHIATRIST AND SOME OF HER INTERNS. SHE ASKED ME A SERIES OF NO BRAINER QUESTIONS! AFTER SHE CONCLUDED, SHE SAID TO HER INTERNS. I DOUBT HE IS INCOMPETENT. I SAID I WANTED TO TAKE A REAL COMPETENCY EXAM AT THAT TIME. SHE TOLD ME I WOULDN'T BE ALLOWED TO DO SO FOR THIRTY DAYS. SHE TOLD ME THAT SHE WAS PUTTING ME IN ISLAMORADA UNIT BECAUSE OF MY OPEN HEAD WOUND. THERE IS A LOT OF FIGHTING THAT GOES ON HERE, ESPECIALLY OVER USING THE PHONE. THERE IS ONE PHONE IN EACH UNIT. ISLAMORADA IS A MEDICAL UNIT AND THEY ARE MORE REFINED IN THEIR BEHAVIOR.

I WAS WALKED DOWN TO ISLAMORADA. AS I WALKED IN I OBSERVED A MAN COLORING IN A COLORING BOOK AND ANOTHER MAN TWISTING FLOWERS OUT OF COLORED NAPKINS. BOTH OF THEM APPEARED TO BE AROUND FIFTY YEARS OLD. SOME OF THE INMATES WERE WATCHING THE SHINING ON TV. I WAS TAKEN TO MY OWN CELL AND PROVIDED WITH MORE JEANS AND T-SHIRTS ALONG WITH SOME SWEATSHIRTS. THEY KEPT THE TEMPERATURE AT A CONSTANT 65 DEGREES. SOON I MET DR PICINAL MY PSYCHIATRIST. HE ACTUALLY IMPRESSED ME AS BEING A NORMAL GUY. SPEAKING WITH HIM WAS QUITE REFRESHING CONSIDERING ALL OF THE UNIQUE INDIVIDUALS I HAVE ENCOUNTERED SINCE MY INITIAL INCARCERATION. AS WE VISITED I KNEW HE COULD TELL I HAD NO BUSINESS BEING THERE AT THE FTC. HE WOULD LET ME KNOW THAT HIS CONCLUSION I WAS COMPETENT! I WAS SURE HE KNEW FROM THE FIRST TIME WE MET! I INQUIRED OF HIM HOW LONG THE DURATION OF MY TIME HAD TO BE. I CAN PASS ANY LEGITIMATE COMPETENCY TEST RIGHT NOW. IT DIDN'T SEEM NECESSARY TO KEEP ME INCARCERATED FOR SIX MONTHS! HE REPLIED, BECAUSE THIS IS A COURT ORDER I CAN'T GIVE YOU A COMPETENCY TEST FOR AT LEAST FOUR WEEKS! I SAID THAT'S PREPOSTEROUS! WELL AT LEAST I KNOW I'LL GET THAT DONE AND THIS ONE WILL BE LEGITIMATE. DR PICINAL KNEW I COULD PASS THE TEST RIGHT AWAY. MEANWHILE I NEEDED TO APPRECIATE THAT I HAD MY OWN PRIVATE CELL FOR THE NEXT FOUR WEEKS AND THE FOOD HERE IS MUCH HEALTHIER. I HAD MY OWN PRIVATE BATHROOM AND I DIDN'T HAVE TO BE CONCERNED ABOUT THE SHOWERS. BACK IN JAIL I ALWAYS TOOK A SHOWER AT 4:30 IN THE MORNING WHEN EVERYONE ELSE WAS SLEEPING!

EACH WEEK DAY WE HAD TO ATTEND FOUR CLASSES. THEY CONSISTED OF DRUG ABUSE AWARENESS. NOT APPLICABLE TO ME, BUT I KEPT NOTES, AS I THOUGHT PERHAPS I COULD USE SOME OF THE MATERIAL TO HELP SOME OF OUR MOTEL GUESTS AND OTHERS. THE OTHER CLASSES WERE ANGER MANAGEMENT AND ABOUT COURT. THE GREATEST CONCENTRATION OF TEACHING WAS GEARED TOWARD UNDERSTANDING PROPER COURT PROCEDURE AND UNDERSTANDING THE FALSE CHARGES BROUGHT AGAINST ME, OF WHICH I AM VERY WELL AWARE! ALSO THE TIME I WILL SERVE IN PRISON IF I AM FOUND GUILTY, WHICH COULD BE UP TO FIVE YEARS!

THE NUMBER ONE PRIORITY OF THEIR INSTRUCTORS WAS TO CONVINCE ME, THAT MY PUBLIC DEFENDER WAS ON MY SIDE AND ESSENTIALLY NONE OF US WERE ALLOWED TO SAY MY PUBLIC DEFENDER WAS AGAINST ME! THIS WAS GOING TO BE WEEKS OF PSYCHOLOGICAL MIND WASHING AND INTIMIDATION TACTICS. IT WAS CLEARLY EVIDENT THAT BY THE TIME A PERSON LEAVES THIS FACILITY THEY ARE TO BE SCARED TO DEATH OF THEIR CHARGES. THEY ARE ALL CONVINCED, THEY WILL BE FOUND GUILTY AND ARE NOT INNOCENT!  THIS IS ALL DESIGNED TO INTIMIDATE PEOPLE TO NOT PLEAD NOT GUILTY AND GO TO TRIAL. YOU WILL OBEY YOUR PUBLIC DEFENDER, AND YOU WILL EITHER EXCEPT YOUR CHARGES, PLEAD GUILTY AND ASK THE JUDGE FOR LENIENCY OR TAKE A PLEA BARGAIN AND PLEAD NO CONTEST AND RECEIVE A LESSER SENTENCE. THIS APPROACH PROVIDED THE STATE PROSECUTOR AN EASY VICTORY, AT THE SAME TIME THE PUBLIC DEFENDER ALSO IS ACCREDITED FOR A VICTORY! THIS WAS NEVER THE INTENTION OF OUR LEGAL JUSTICE SYSTEM. FOR THE ENTIRE DURATION OF MY STAY I SPOKE WITH MANY  INMATES AND THEY ALL HAD ONE THING IN COMMON. A PUBLIC DEFENDER. NOT ONE HAD A PRIVATE ATTORNEY!

WE ARE ONE NATION UNDER GOD AND RIGHTEOUSNESS AND JUSTICE ARE THE FOUNDATION OF HIS THRONE. WHAT WAS GOING ON HERE HAS VERY LITTLE TO DO WITH JUSTICE OR RIGHTEOUSNESS! I KNEW MANY HERE WERE GUILTY OF THE CRIME THEY COMMITTED. BUT OUR LEGAL SYSTEM WAS BASED ON INNOCENT UNTIL PROVEN GUILTY. A JURY OR JUDGE MUST BE CONVINCED BEYOND THE SHADOW OF A DOUBT YOU ARE GUILTY IN ORDER TO PASS A GUILTY VERDICT. THE CHARGES BROUGHT AGAINST A PERSON DOESN'T CONSTITUTE AUTOMATIC GUILT! WE ARE INNOCENT UNTIL PROVEN GUILTY IN A COURT OF LAW! YET I HAVE BEEN INCARCERATED FOR QUITE SOME TIME. THIS WAS ENTIRELY A MISCARRIAGE OF JUSTICE! I HAVE BEEN HANDED A BILL OF WRONGS!

I WAS INFORMED THEY WERE TAKING ME TO THEY EYE DOCTOR AS THEY WERE CONCERNED THE CANCER MIGHT BE INVADING MY RIGHT EYE. I HAD TO CHANGE INTO MY ORANGE JAIL CLOTHES AND WAS HANDCUFFED TO MY WAIST AND PUT IN LEG SHACKLES AGAIN. I WAS TAKEN INTO DOWNTOWN MIAMI TO AN OPHTHALMOLOGIST! HE ULTIMATELY DETERMINED I WAS IN THE CLEAR. NO CANCER IN MY EYE!

RHONDA AND I VISIT EVERY DAY BY PHONE! SHE SENT ME A WATCH ALONG WITH FIFTEEN STAMPS AND ASKED ME TO WRITE OFTEN! I TOLD HER I AM STARTING TO WRITE THIS BOOK AS I WRITE I WILL SEND HER THE PAGES FOR SAFE KEEPING! I DREW A SAMPLE OF THE BOOK'S COVER AND MAILED IT TO HER. SHE IS BEING A REAL HELP TO ME BY KEEPING MY BANK ACCOUNT OPEN AND PAYING OUR AUTO INSURANCE. SHE SENT ME SOME MONEY TO SPEND IN THE CANTEEN!

RHONDA AND I HAD A CIVIL UNION AND DECLARED OURSELVES A MARRIED COUPLE. IN OUR EYES IT WAS LEGITIMATE! WE BOTH WANT A MORE OFFICIAL WEDDING SO WE WERE GETTING EXCITED AND DECIDED AS SOON AS I AM RELEASED WE WILL GET LEGALLY OFFICIALLY MARRIED. WE SANG TOGETHER, GOING TO THE CHAPEL AND WE'RE GOING TO GET MARRIED! I CAN HARDLY WAIT, I LOVE RHONDA SO MUCH! WHILE THIS CIRCUMSTANCE IS NOT WHAT I PREFER! I WAS REALLY EXCITED TO MAKE OUR UNION OFFICIAL. WE'VE ALWAYS SAID NOTHING CAN SEPARATE US! I WAS SO BLESSED THAT HER COMMITMENT TO SEE THIS ALL THE WAY THOUGH TO JUSTICE WAS UNWAVERING!

THE WEEKS WERE PASSING SLOWLY AND I WAS GETTING ACQUAINTED WITH SOME OF MY FELLOW INMATES. I BECAME ACQUAINTED WITH RODNEY AND CARLOS. RODNEY WAS INCARCERATED FOR CUTTING HIS GIRL FRIENDS THROAT WHILE SHE WAS IN BED SLEEPING. SHE SURVIVED. ROBERT AND I HAD LONG VISITS ABOUT THE LORD! ROBERT'S NAME IS IN OUR FAMILY ALBUM! CARLOS CAME HOME AND FOUND HIS WIFE WITH ANOTHER MAN. WE WAS A TRUCK DRIVER AND DROVE OVER HIS WIFE WITH AN 18 WHEELER AND KILLED HER. I AM IN MIXED COMPANY WITH SOME DISTURBED PEOPLE. 

I WAS TAKEN OUT AGAIN, THIS TIME TO HAVE A CAT SCAN BECAUSE OF MY CANCEROUS OPEN HEAD WOUND! I WENT THROUGH THE SAME ROUTINE. I HAD TO PUT ON MY ORANGE JAIL UNIFORM AND WAS CHAINED TO MY WAIST AND BACK INTO THE LEG SHACKLES! I WOULD MISS LUNCH SO THEY GAVE ME A STYROFOAM CONTAINER WITH A SANDWICH AND SOME CHIPS. I OPENED IT TO TAKE A LOOK AND SAW SMALL COCKROACHES RUNNING ACROSS MY SANDWICH! THIS WAS A GOOD TIME TO START A NEW FAST!

THE CAT SCAN WOULD REVEAL THAT THE CANCER HAD SPREAD INTO MY SKULL BONE!

THERE HAD BEEN A LOT OF ABUSE TO MY CANCEROUS OPEN HEAD WOUND AND TIME IS OF THE ESSENCE TO GET PROPER MEDICAL ATTENTION AND GET THIS CANCER ERADICATED! THIS FALSE IMPRISONMENT FROM DEPUTY KUSH'S FALSE CHARGES ARE PUTTING ME INTO A SEVERE MEDICAL SITUATION.

I MUST TAKE THE COMPETENCY EVALUATION AS SOON AS I CAN. I SPOKE WITH DR PICINAL AND HE EXPRESSED TO ME A DEEP CONCERN REGARDING THE CANCER HAVING SPREAD INTO MY SKULL. WE BOTH AGREED. A SOON AS I HAD THE LEGAL GREEN LIGHT TO DO IT, I CAN TAKE THE EVALUATION. DR PICINAL INFORMED ME HE HAD THE LAWYERS FOR THE EVALUATION TREATMENT CENTER PRESENTING MY CASE TO THE STATE PROSECUTOR FOR MY CHARGES TO BE DISMISSED, IT WAS APPARENT HE KNEW THE CHARGES WERE BOGUS. DR PICINAL WAS PAVING THE WAY FOR ME TO RECEIVE THE PROPER MEDICAL ATTENTION I NEEDED! THAT WAS WELCOME NEWS!

FOUR WEEKS HAVE GONE BY AND I WAS GIVEN THE COMPETENCY EVALUATION BY DR PICINAL AT HIS EARLIEST CONVENIENCE! I PASSED WITH FLYING COLORS. DR PICINAL INFORMED ME THAT HE BELIEVED MY CASE IS VERY PLAUSIBLE AND HE WILL SUBMIT HIS DETERMINATION TO JUDGE ABDONEY THAT I AM COMPETENT AND MY CASE IS JUST WHAT HE SAID. PLAUSIBLE! HE TOLD ME THE ACCUSATION FROM DEPUTY KUSH DIDN'T REFLECT WHO I AM. HE INDICATED I WOULD BE PICKED UP AND BROUGHT BACK TO JAIL SOME TIME IN THE NEXT TWO WEEKS AND IT WASN'T NECESSARY TO FOR ME TO BE AT THE FLORIDA EVALUATION TREATMENT CENTER UNTIL DECEMBER. MY PROFESSIONAL ASSESSMENT FROM THE JAIL PSYCHIATRIST AND DR PICINAL ALONG WITH THE ADMITTING PSYCHIATRIST WERE VERY ACCURATE, TRUTHFUL AND COMPETENT AS OPPOSED TO DR TARBOX MALPRACTICE OF HER DELIBERATE FALSE EVALUATION.

THERE IS A YOUNG MAN ABOUT TWENTY YEARS OF AGE IN OUR UNIT. HE ALWAYS REMAINED SILENT.  HIS HAIR WAS ALWAYS A MESS AND HE DIDN'T PARTICIPATE IN ANY ACTIVITIES! THE ENTIRE TIME I HAD BEEN HERE HE HAD NOT SPOKEN A WORD TO ANYONE. WHEN A GUARD OR A NURSE SPOKE TO HIM HE NEVER ANSWERED HE LOOKED STRAIGHT AHEAD! HE DIDN'T EVEN OPEN HIS MOUTH. HE WAS SITTING IN THE FRONT ROOM BY HIMSELF STARING OFF INTO SPACE. I CAME AND SAT BY HIM. WE WERE QUIET TOGETHER FOR A WHILE. I LOOKED AT HIM WITH RESPECT. I ASKED HIM, HAS ANYONE EVER TOLD YOU ABOUT JESUS? HE LOOKED RIGHT AT ME AND SAID, NO JIM, I DON'T KNOW WHO HE IS. I'VE NEVER HEARD OF HIM. WHO ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? HE MEANT HIS QUESTION SINCERELY! I TOLD HIM HOW MUCH JESUS LOVES HIM AND LET HIM KNOW THAT WHATEVER HE HAS DONE. GOD WANTED TO FORGIVE HIM AND ADOPT HIM AND BE HIS FATHER. WE PRAYED TOGETHER AND HE MEANT EVERY WORD OF IT. IF THIS YOUNG MAN WAS EVER GOING TO SPEAK IT HAD TO MEAN SOMETHING OR HE HAD NOTHING TO SAY! HE JUST HAD THE GREATEST DAY IN HIS LIFE. I WAS ABLE TO GET HIM A BIBLE. IN TWO DAYS I WAS PICKED UP AND WAS TRANSPORTED BACK TO JAIL! I TOLD THE LORD, I KNEW THE APOSTLE PAUL HAD BEEN ON DIFFICULT PATH AND THIS WASN'T NECESSARILY AN EASY ONE FOR ME EITHER. BUT IF MY BEING HERE WAS A DIVINE APPOINTMENT AND IT WAS ONLY FOR THAT YOUNG MAN, THANKS FOR USING ME AT THE LAST MINUTE TO INTRODUCE HIM TO YOU!

WHEN THAT YOUNG MAN ASKED WHO I WAS TALKING ABOUT WHEN REFERRING TO JESUS, HIS QUESTION TOOK ME BACK TO ONE OF THE GREATEST, DISOBEDIENT, TRAGEDIES IN MY LIFE. ONE OF MY VERY BEST FRIENDS WAS CHUCK. HE WAS A HARD WORKING CARPET LAYER AND WAS TRULY THE KIND OF MAN THAT WOULD GIVE YOU THE SHIRT OFF HIS BACK. HE ASKED ME ABOUT FIVE DIFFERENT TIMES, WHY I BELIEVED IN JESUS. FOR NO GOOD REASON I ALWAYS TOLD HIM I WILL SIT DOWN AND TELL YOU SOME TIME, BUT NOT RIGHT NOW. HE LIKED TO HANG OUT IN A SMALL PUB NOT FAR FROM WHERE I LIVED. HE WAS LIKED BY EVERYONE. I WAS ON A BIKE RIDE ONE AFTERNOON AND AT 4:15 I FELT AN URGENCY IN MY SPIRIT TO CALL CHUCK RIGHT NOW! I WAITED UNTIL I GOT HOME. I SAT OUT ON MY LANAI TO CALL CHUCK AT ABOUT 5:45 AND SEE WHAT'S UP!

AS I SAT DOWN AND A MUTUAL FRIEND OF OURS CALLED AND SAID, JIM, YOU NEED TO GET TO BAYFRONT MEDICAL CENTER IMMEDIATELY, CHUCK JUST SHOT HIMSELF IN THE HEAD! THIS WAS AVOIDABLE AND I DIDN'T OBEY THE URGENT PROMPTING OF THE SPIRIT OF GRACE. I DROVE TO THE HOSPITAL AND WENT TO ICU. THE DR TOLD ME CHUCK SHOT HIMSELF WITH A 22 CALIBER HANDGUN AND THE BULLET ENTERED HIS SKULL AND BOUNCED BACK AND FORTH, ESSENTIALLY SHREDDING HIS BRAIN. HE WAS BRAIN DEAD! I STAYED WITH HIM ALL NIGHT LONG AND PRAYED WITH HIM AND WORSHIPPED THE LORD AND CRIED OUT FOR MERCY FOR CHUCK. I KNOW WE ARE A SPIRIT, WE HAVE A SOUL AND WE LIVE IN A BODY. CHUCK'S BRAIN WAS DEAD BUT HIS BODY WAS ON LIFE SUPPORT. I TALKED WITH CHUCK ALL NIGHT LONG ABOUT SCRIPTURE, ESPECIALLY THE GOSPEL! HIS PARENTS FLEW IN FROM OHIO AND HAD HIS LIFE SUPPORT REMOVED AT 8:30 AM.

I WAS CONTACTED IN A FEW DAYS BY CHUCK'S GIRLFRIEND AND SHE ASKED IF I WOULD PREACH HIS MEMORIAL SERVICE. I SAID YES, THAT'S THE LEAST I CAN DO. I FELT TERRIBLE. EVERYONE MET IN A RECREATION CENTER AT A NEARBY MOBILE HOME PARK. I EXPECTED ABOUT 20 PEOPLE, BUT THERE WAS CLOSE TO TWO HUNDRED. MOST WERE BAR PATRONS. WITH A MASSIVE LUMP IN MY THROAT AND TEARS IN MY EYES I PREACHED THE GOSPEL IN RAW FORM. PREACH THE WORD, BE INSTANT IN SEASON AND OUT OF SEASON, REPROVE, REBUKE, EXHORT WITH ALL LONGSUFFERING AND DOCTRINE. 2 TIMOTHY 4:2 

WITH EVERY HEAD BOWED AND EVERY EYE CLOSED ALMOST EVERY ONE LIFTED THEIR HANDS AND INVITED JESUS TO BE THEIR LORD AND SAVIOR! AFTER THE SERVICE ONE OF CHUCK'S WORK PARTNERS CAME TO ME AND SAID HE BELIEVED IN THE LORD. HE SAID JIM, I WAS AT THE HOSPITAL WITH CHUCK BEFORE YOU AND I BELIEVE THE LORD WANTS ME TO SHARE WITH YOU. HE SAID HE WENT OVER TO CHUCK AND LAID HIS HANDS ON HIM AND SAID, CHUCK, YOU REALLY BLEW IT THIS TIME. HE TOLD HIM TO CONFESS JESUS AND ASK FOR FORGIVENESS. AS HE PRAYED THE HEART MONITOR AND LUNG MACHINES WENT CRAZY. TWO NURSES STANDING WITH HIM. SAID WOW! THEY HAD NEVER SEEN THAT HAPPEN BEFORE!

I AM MORE DETERMINED TO SERVE GOD ESPECIALLY THROUGH THE TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS OF JAIL! YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT DIVINE APPOINTMENT AWAITS A PERSON.  I MUST TRUST AND OBEY THE PROMPTINGS OF THE HOLY SPIRIT!

WHEN I RETURNED TO BOOKING, MY GAUZE HAD FALLEN OFF AND THE NURSE REDRESSED MY WOUND. UPON MY ARRIVAL BACK TO SOUTH COUNTY JAIL IN FROST PROOF. I WAS FULLY EXPECTING TO BE ESCORTED TO S- MED.  IT WAS 4:30 PM THE GUARD SAID NO. I HAVE BEEN TOLD TO TAKE YOU TO ALPHA DORM AND NOT SOUTH MEDICAL. I SAID THAT WAS WRONG, I NEEDED CONTINUAL MEDICAL CARE FOR MY CANCEROUS OPEN HEAD WOUND. HE SAID TOO BAD. I DON'T REALLY CARE. THIS IS THE DORM WHERE ALL OF THE PSYCHO'S ARE HELD. HE PUT ME IN CELL # 5. WHEN I ENTERED, THE GUARD CHECKED MY IDENTIFICATION AND TOLD MY NEW CELL MATE TO SHOW HIS I.D. HE SWORE AT THE GUARD AND SAID YOU KNOW I DON'T HAVE AN I.D, GET OUT OF HERE. THE GUARD SLAMMED THE STEAL DOOR SHUT. I WAS IN TROUBLE. THIS INMATE STARTED SCREAMING AT ME AND CALLING ME VARIOUS RACIAL NAMES. HE SCREAMED,I KNOW WHO YOU ARE! I AM GOING TO KILL YOU!  IF I HAD A GUN YOU WOULD ALREADY BE DEAD. HE TOLD ME HE WAS GOING TO STATE PRISON FOR KILLING SOMEONE AND IT DIDN'T MATTER TO HIM. I AM GOING TO KILL YOU TONIGHT. HE SCREAMED! I SAT ON THE STEEL BUNK BEHIND HIM. THROUGHOUT THE NIGHT HE GOT UP SEVERAL TIMES AND WENT TO THE BATHROOM AND KEPT YELLING I AM GOING TO KILL YOU! I HATE YOU! I KEPT MY BLANKET OVER MY HEAD AND PRAYED. I KNEW DEEP IN MY SPIRIT, NOT TO MESS WITH HIM OR PROVOKE HIM BECAUSE HE REALLY DOES INTEND TO KILL ME! HE SPIT ON ME A COUPLE OF TIMES DURING THE NIGHT. ALL THE TIME I WAS UNDER MY BLANKET THE REALITY OF PSALM 91 WAS REVEALED TO ME. HE WHO DWELLS IN THE SECRET PLACE OF THE MOST HIGH, SHALL ABIDE UNDER THE SHADOW OF THE ALMIGHTY, I WILL SAY OF THE LORD, HE IS MY REFUGE AND MY FORTRESS. MY GOD IN YOU I TRUST. KEEP ME HIDDEN IN THE SHELTER OF YOUR WING AND BE MY SHIELD.

THE LORD PROVED HIMSELF THAT HE IS MY GOD, A MIGHTY FORTRESS, A BULWARK NEVER FAILING! 

I KEPT MY RESERVE AND STAYED UNDER MY BLANKET AND PRAYED.  WHEN THE GUARD OPENED THE CELL DOOR AT 11:30 THAT MORNING, I RAN TOWARD HIM FOR HELP! THE INMATE TURNED AROUND AND IMMEDIATELY BELTED MY LEFT EYE, IT WAS A DIRECT, SOLID HIT! I WAS DRIVEN AGAINST THE CONCRETE WALL AND MY HEAD HIT RIGHT ON MY CANCEROUS OPEN HEAD WOUND. I WAS ALMOST KNOCKED UNCONSCIOUS. OFFICER RODRIGUEZ WAS THE GUARD, HE IMMEDIATELY SUBDUED THE MAN! I WAS SEEING STARS AND MY LEFT EYE BEGAN TO SWELL UP. HE TOOK ME INTO THE HALLWAY WHERE ANOTHER DEPUTY TOOK PICTURES. THEN WE WENT TO A SMALL NURSES STATION AND SHE ADDRESSED MY HEAD WOUND,  SHE CLEANED IT AND BANDAGED IT UP. OFFICER RODRIGUEZ SAID I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY PUT MR RODVIK IN WITH THE PSYCHO'S! HE SHOULD HAVE BEEN BROUGHT STRAIGHT TO S- MED WITH THAT CANCER AND HIS OPEN HEAD WOUND! HE TRANSFERRED ME IMMEDIATELY TO S-MED!

I ENTERED S-MED THEY WERE OVERCROWDED, SO I WAS GIVEN A BOAT AGAIN! SOME OF THE INMATES WERE GLAD TO SEE ME. I HAD A GREAT VISIT WITH MARK, THE LITTLE PRAYER GROUP WE STARTED HAD GROWN TO 12 INMATES AND SOMETIMES MORE. THAT WAS FANTASTIC NEWS! I DECIDED TO GO ON A SERIOUS FAST, SO I FASTED FOURTEEN DAYS ON WATER ONLY. MOST OF THAT TIME I STAYED ON MY BUNK UNDER MY BLANKET. AND PRAYED! AFTER FOURTEEN DAYS I WAS READY TO END MY FAST. BEFORE I ATE ANYTHING I FELT A PROMPTING TO INTRODUCE MYSELF TO A YOUNG MAN WHOSE NAME IS PHILLI ROJAS. PHILLI WAS NOT WELL. THE INMATES HAD TO PICK HIM UP AND LIFT HIM INTO HIS WHEELCHAIR TO GO THE BATHROOM. HE WAS EXTREMELY WEAK! PHILLI WAS ALL SKIN AND BONES. HE WAS SIX FOOT TALL AND WEIGHED ONLY 98 LBS. HE WAS FROM PUERTO RICO AND EXPLAINED TO ME HE WILL DIE IN A MONTH OR SO, HE HAD ADVANCED HIV/AIDS. HE EXPLAINED HE GOT AIDS BECAUSE HE WAS A HEROIN ADDICT. HE HAD TROUBLE WALKING BECAUSE A SHERIFF'S DEPUTY SHOT HIM THROUGH BOTH HIS FEET WHEN HE WAS TRYING TO RUN AWAY FROM THE DEPUTY! HE COMPLAINED HE HAD NO APPETITE AT ALL AND WAS SO WEAK. I ASKED HIM IF HE KNEW THE LORD. HIS EYES GOT REAL BIG AND HE SAID OH YES PAPA. JESUS IS MY BEST FRIEND. I ASKED IF I COULD PRAY FOR HIM. HE SAID YES! PLEASE PAPA PRAY FOR ME! I LAID MY HANDS ON HIS HEAD AND SPOKE DIRECTLY TO THE AIDS AND CURSED IT AT THE ROOTS IN JESUS NAME, I LOOSED THE FIRE OF GOD TO BURN EVERYTHING OUT OF HIM THAT WAS NOT FROM GOD! I ASKED FOR A BLOOD TRANSFUSION FROM CALVARY'S CROSS AND ASKED GOD TO HEAL OR REPLACE ANY VITAL ORGANS THAT HAVE BEEN DAMAGED!  WHEN I FINISHED PRAYING, PHILLI LOOKED UP AT ME AND SAID WOAH, THAT'S THE REAL DEAL, MAN. PAPA I FEEL SO HOT, I AM BURNING ON THE INSIDE. I SAID THAT'S JESUS. HE IS HEALING YOU NOW! JESUS SAID, "TRULY I TELL YOU, IF YOU HAVE FAITH AND DO NOT DOUBT IN YOUR HEART NOT ONLY CAN YOU DO WHAT WAS DONE TO THE FIG TREE, BUT ALSO YOU CAN SAY TO THIS MOUNTAIN, GO THROW YOURSELF INTO THE SEA IT WILL BE DONE"! MATTHEW 21:21 I WILL DO WHATEVER YOU ASK IN MY NAME SO THAT THE FATHER MAY BE GLORIFIED IN THE SON! JOHN 14:13

A GUARD INFORMED ME I HAD A VISITOR IN THE LAWYERS BOOTH! WHEN I GOT THERE I MET A NEW PUBLIC DEFENDER WHO'S NAME WAS BETH PETERSON. I INQUIRED ABOUT ANDRONETTE SULLIVAN AND WAS INFORMED SHE HAD BEEN REMOVED FROM MY CASE. I THOUGHT GOOD, MAYBE I'LL GET SOME POSITIVE RESULTS WITH THIS LAWYER! RHONDA AND I HAD BEEN TEXTING BACK AND FORTH AND DISCUSSING THE RAMIFICATIONS SURROUNDING MY CASE. WE WERE VERY CONCERNED ABOUT THE CANCER NOW MATASTASIZED INTO MY SKULL!  MS PETERSON WAS NOT INTERESTED IN DEFENDING MY CASE. SHE WANTED ME TO TAKE A PLEA BARGAIN. I SAID, LISTEN. I WILL NOT PLEAD GUILTY. SHE INFORMED ME THE STATE HAD MADE AN OFFER. PLEAD GUILTY TO TWO MISDEMEANORS AND RECEIVE CREDIT FOR TIME SERVED. MY HEALTH STATUS WAS IMPORTANT SO I SAID I WILL TAKE THAT UNDER CONSIDERATION AND DISCUSS IT WITH RHONDA! I TEXT RHONDA THE OFFER FROM THE STATE. RHONDA REALLY WANTED ME TO COME HOME! UNDER THE CIRCUMSTANCES WE BOTH AGREED TO PRAY ABOUT THE STATES OFFER. WE BOTH TOTALLY AGREED WE CAN ALWAYS FILE AN APPEAL.

TWO WEEKS WENT BY AND PHILLI HAD A BIG WEIGHT INCREASE, HE PUT ON 4O LBS. HE NOW WEIGHED 138 LBS AND HAD AN INSATIABLE APPETITE! HE WAS PUSHING INMATES AROUND IN HIS WHEELCHAIR FOR EXERCISE HE KNEW HE WAS PROGRESSIVELY HEALING AND HE WAS THANKING JESUS! THE LORD GIVES POWER TO THE WEAK, AND TO THOSE WHO HAVE NO MIGHT HE INCREASES STRENGTH. ISAIAH 40:29 THE LAST DAY I SAW PHILLIP AS HE WAS BEING RELEASED. DR RODRIQUEZ SAID PHILLI, YOU ARE A MOST AMAZING MIRACLE, I HAVE NEVER SEEN ANYTHING LIKE THIS BEFORE! 

I BECAME ACQUAINTED WITH ANOTHER INMATE, HIS NAME WAS MIKE. HE WAS BEING TRANSPORTED FROM STATE PRISON. MIKE WAS DIAGNOSED WITH SQUAMOUS CANCER IN HIS JAW. DURING HIS INCARCERATION HE HAD THE LEFT SIDE OF HIS JAW REMOVED AND PART OF HIS LEG BONE REPLACED IT. IT WAS VERY DISFIGURING TO HIS FACE. HIS JAW STUCK WAY OUT PAST HIS FACE. HE WAS SO DEPRESSED AND CRIED OFTEN. HE SAID HE HAD FOUR STAGE CANCER AND JUST WANTED TO GO HOME BE WITH HIS WIFE AND 8 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER BEFORE HE DIED. WE PRAYED TOGETHER AND ASKED THAT GOD WOULD INTERVENE THROUGH THE COURT, GIVE HIM FAVOR WITH THE STATE AND EXPEDITE HIM A RELEASE. THEN I CURSED THAT CANCER AT ITS ROOT IN JESUS NAME AND LOOSED THE FIRE OF GOD TO BURN OUT ALL OF THAT CANCER! MIKE SAID, I HAVE NEVER FELT ANYTHING LIKE THIS. I AM SO HOT, I AM BURNING UP!. I SAID JESUS IS HEALING YOU MIKE, THANK HIM FOR IT! A COUPLE DAYS LATER MIKE INFORMED ME HIS LAWYER CONTACTED HIM AND SAID THE STATE WAS HAVING A SPECIAL MEETING IN TALLAHASSEE TO MAKE ARRANGEMENTS FOR MIKE TO HAVE AN IMMEDIATE RELEASE! SO IF THE SON SETS YOU FREE YOU ARE FREE INDEED. JOHN 8:36

MS PETERSON RETURNED FOR A VISIT. I MET HER IN THE LAWYERS BOOTH AND SHE SAID. THE STATE HAD CHANGED THEIR OFFER. IF YOU WILL PLEAD NO CONTEST YOU WILL STILL RECEIVE A 3RD DEGREE FELONY FOR BATTERY ON A LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICE AND A MISDEMEANOR FOR RESISTING ARREST WITHOUT VIOLENCE. THE STATE WILL RELEASE YOU IMMEDIATELY AND GIVE YOU PROBATION FOR 24 MONTHS. THIS WAY YOU'LL GET THE NECESSARY TREATMENT FOR YOUR CANCER! I SAID WHAT HAS PROMPTED THEM TO CHANGE THEIR OFFER SO DRAMATICALLY. SHE SAID DEPUTY KUSH SUBMITTED A STATEMENT THAT YOU HAVE BEEN THREATENING TO HARM HIM AND HIS FAMILY. I SAID THAT IS COMPLETELY FALSE. IT NEVER HAPPENED. THAT IS A HEARSAY LIE! I SAID NO, WE ARE GOING TO TRIAL. I'VE HAD ENOUGH. I TOLD MS PETERSON, YOU ARE MY LAWYER, NOW SUBPOENA THOSE SECURITY VIDEOS FROM THE SHERIFF'S STATION FROM JULY 31ST 2017 BETWEEN 9 AM AND 11AM AND DEFEND ME PROPERLY! SHE STOOD UP FROM HER CHAIR AND SCREAMED AT ME. YOU LISTEN TO ME, I WILL NOT SUBPOENA THOSE SECURITY VIDEOS. I WON'T DO IT! BESIDES THEY MIGHT NOT HAVE BEEN RECORDING THAT DAY. THEY WERE RECORDING THAT DAY I SAID FIRMLY. I KNEW THIS BECAUSE THEY SENT MS. ROEBUCK A VIDEO FROM THE OTHER SIDE OF THE PARKING LOT ONE HOUR AFTER I WAS HOSPITALIZED BY KUSH'S BRUTAL ASSAULT! YES, THOSE CAMERAS WERE RECORDING, THEY ARE ALWAYS RECORDING!!

I RECEIVED A TEXT FROM RHONDA THAT WAS URGENT. SHE SAID OH MY GOD JIM ARE YOU DYING AND NOT TELLING ME? SHE SAID MS PETERSON CALLED ME AND ASKED WHAT ARRANGEMENTS I WAS MAKING FOR HOSPICE BECAUSE YOU ARE DYING FROM BRAIN CANCER. RHONDA SAID SHE WAS SO SCARED! WHY HAVEN'T YOU TOLD ME? I RESPONDED, RHONDA, I DO NOT HAVE BRAIN CANCER. THIS IS COMPLETELY FALSE AND MISLEADING!

I HAD A VIVID RECALL OF MY VISION OF TALL YELLOW CINDER BLOCK WALLS AND THE COFFIN WITH THE US FLAG COVERING IT. EVERY WALL AND EVERY AREA OF THE JAIL WAS LITERALLY TALL, BRIGHT YELLOW CINDER BLOCK WALLS! WITH ALL THEIR DETERMINATION TO SILENCE ME, I KNEW DEEP IN MY SPIRIT THAT IF I DIDN'T GET DISCHARGED VERY SOON THIS WAS GOING TO COST ME MY LIFE.

RHONDA TEXT ME A BEAUTIFUL MESSAGE AND SAID, JIM, I LOVE YOU MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY. NO ONE WILL EVER UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH I MISS YOU AND WANT YOU TO COME HOME! MY HEART HURTS EVERY DAY. LET'S PUT AN END TO THIS. MAYBE YOU SHOULD JUST TAKE THE STATES OFFER AND COME HOME. WE CAN FIGURE OUT WHAT TO DO FROM THERE. YOU CAN'T PROPERLY DEFEND YOURSELF UNDER THESE CIRCUMSTANCES AND YOU ARE NOT SAFE THERE. PLEAD NO CONTEST AND GET OUT OF THERE. THEN WE WILL FILE AN APPEAL! I LOVE YOU FOREVER, YOUR WIFE RHONDA!

I HAD A TERRIBLE DREAM THAT NIGHT. RHONDA WAS VIOLATED BY AN OLDER MAN! SHE HAD A TATTOO OF THE CROSS UNDER HER LEFT EYE WITH TATTOO TEAR DROPS RUNNING DOWN HER CHEEK NEXT TO THE CROSS. SHE LOOKED STONE FACED. I WOKE UP VERY UPSET AND PRAYED ABOUT IT! I FELT A DEEP GRIEVANCE IN MY HEART. I KNEW SOMETHING HAPPENED. I WAS GOING TO COURT IN ONE WEEK AND WAS NOT GETTING ANY RESPONSE FROM RHONDA BY TEXT ANYMORE! NOTHING! A FEW DAYS BEFORE COURT, RHONDA SENT A MESSAGE STATING SHE WAS NOT COMFORTABLE WITH THE ENTIRE ARRANGEMENT, RHONDA SAID, SHE WASN'T SURE SHE WANTED A SOON TO BE FELON COMING HOME, SHE'D BE BETTER OFF ALONE!

THE MORNING I WENT TO COURT I SENT A TEXT TO RHONDA AND ASKED HER TO PLEASE BE THERE NO MATTER WHAT. I DECIDED I HAD NO CHOICE BUT TO PLEAD NO CONTEST. THE DURESS I WAS PLACED UNDER AT THIS POINT ABSOLUTELY TOO MUCH AND I WAS VERY CONCERNED FOR MY HEALTH, WELL BEING AND LIVELIHOOD, BUT MOST ESPECIALLY RHONDA'S WELL BEING! MS. PETERSON CAME AND WE REVIEWED THE STATES OFFER. I JUST WANT TO GET HOME AT THIS POINT. SHE INFORMED ME, RHONDA WAS THERE AND SHE WAS BEING VERY UNFRIENDLY. WHEN I CAME INTO THE COURTROOM I WAS SO EXCITED TO SEE HER. IT'S BEEN FOUR MONTHS. WHEN I LOOKED BACK AT HER, SHE HAD THE MOST ANGRY, STONE FACE LOOK OF HATE I HAD EVER SEEN. I WAVED AT HER AND SHE DID NOT RESPOND. I PLEAD NO CONTEST, I DIDN'T LIE,  DUE TO INADEQUATE LEGAL COUNCIL AND WITHOUT  PROPER LEGAL REPRESENTATION I WAS COERCED BY ALL THE DURESS I WAS DELIBERATELY PLACED UNDER, I WAS MANIPULATED  INTO THIS PLEA BY MY OWN COURT APPOINTED LAWYER. FOR MY OWN SAFETY AND RHONDA'S, I HAD TO BE RELEASED! I KNEW IF I PLEAD NOT GUILTY I WAS HEADED TO A KANGAROO COURT! THIS WHOLE CASE SHOULD HAVE BEEN AN EASY CASE TO WIN, ALL THE EVIDENCE WAS AVAILABLE TO SUPPORT ME. UNFORTUNATELY MY CONSTITUTIONAL RIGHTS WERE DELIBERATELY, GROSSLY VIOLATED! THIS BOOK EXPLAINS REASONS WHY AND THE ROOT CAUSES FOR THIS OUTCOME!

THE JUDGE FINALLY LOOKED AT ME AND HE SEEMED JOVIAL. BETH PETERSON TOLD HIM I HAD BRAIN CANCER, WHICH WASN'T TRUE AT THE TIME.  BUT EVEN WITH CANCER PRESENTED AS AN ISSUE THE JUDGE THREW THE MAXIMUM AT ME. HE READ ALL OF THE CONDITIONS OF MY RELEASE AND FINED ME OVER TWO THOUSAND DOLLARS TO BE PAID IN TWENTY MONTHS AND GAVE ME 24 MONTHS PROBATION ALONG WITH ORDERS TO HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO CONTACT WITH DEPUTY WITH ALLEN KUSH EVEN THROUGH A THIRD PARTY. I WAS ALSO DENIED ANY CREDIT FOR THE FOUR MONTHS OF TIME SERVED IN JAIL! 

MY COURT APPOINTED ATTORNEYS REFUSED TO SUBPOENA THE SHERIFF STATION SECURITY VIDEOS. THOSE SECURITY VIDEOS ARE EXCULPATORY EVIDENCE DIRECTLY RELATED TO MY CASE THAT WOULD HAVE EXONERATED ME. THEY REFUSED TO TAKE RHONDA'S STATEMENT AS KEY WITNESS. THE STATE PROSECUTOR MOST LIKELY SUBPOENAED THOSE VIDEOS TO STRENGTHEN HIS CASE. IF THEY SUPPORTED HIS CASE THEY WOULD HAVE BEEN INCULPATORY EVIDENCE. PERHAPS HE DID AND PERHAPS HE VIEWED THEM. EITHER WAY ONE LOOKS AT IT, MY PUBLIC DEFENDERS HAD AN ETHICAL, CONSTITUTIONAL RESPONSIBILITY TO UPHOLD THE LAW. THIS IS CLEARLY A CASE OF ABUSE OF PROCESS. I WAS PUT THROUGH ALL OF THIS DURESS TO INTIMIDATE ME TO BE SILENT. I KNOW WHAT I HAVE HEARD AND WITNESSED AND HAVE EXPERIENCED AND I WILL CONTINUE TO TELL THE TRUTH!

THE DELIBERATE COVER UP OF PROSECUTOR WILLIAM KELLER AS WELL AS THE DELIBERATE MISCONDUCT OF MY PUBLIC DEFENDERS ANDRONETTE SULLIVAN AND BETH PETERSON ARE IN SERIOUS VIOLATION OF THEIR OATHS TO UPHOLD THE LAW IN PROPER MANNER! SULLIVAN AND PETERSON DENIED MY MY RIGHT TO HAVE RHONDA'S STATEMENT SUBMITTED AS KEY WITNESS AND REFUSED TO LEGALLY OBTAIN THE VIDEO EVIDENCE, UNLAWFULLY DENYING MY CONSTITUTIONAL RIGHT TO ENTER EXCULPATORY EVIDENCE THAT WOULD HAVE MOST CERTAINLY EXONERATED ME! IN ADDITION, THIS MISCARRIAGE OF JUSTICE PAVED THE WAY FOR NO ACCOUNTABILITY FOR CRIMES COMMITTED ON JULY 31ST 2017 AT THE DAVENPORT SHERIFF'S STATION, POLK COUNTY FLORIDA!

THE ABSOLUTE TRUTH WHICH IS EVIDENTIAL, IS THAT I WAS COERCED INTO A CONFESSION OF NO CONTEST, THUS RESULTING IN ADJUDICATION OF GUILT BECAUSE OF A FORM OF PROSECUTORIAL MISCONDUCT! RACHEL ROEBUCK MY FIRST PUBLIC DEFENDER WAS DOING HER JOB EFFICIENTLY AND APPROPRIATELY. SHE WAS DELIBERATELY REMOVED FROM MY CASE AND REPLACED WITH SULLIVAN THEN PETERSON. THERE IS NO QUESTION AS TO WHY THIS WAS DONE,  BUT WHO ORCHESTRATED THIS?

STATE PROSECUTOR WILLIAM KELLER NEVER HAD ANY EVIDENCE SUPPORTING HIS CASE EXCEPT FALSE CHARGES OF AN EASY TO DISMANTLE, FALSIFIED POLICE REPORT WHICH WAS DESIGNED BY ALLAN KUSH TO COVER UP HIS PHYSICAL VIOLENT BRUTAL ASSAULT ON ME TO PROTECT CRIMINALS! 

GUILT BY OMISSION. IT IS MOST CLEARLY EVIDENT THAT THE PROSECUTOR WOULD HAVE SUBPOENAED THE VIDEOS FROM THE SHERIFFS OFFICE THE MORNING DEPUTY ALLAN KUSH VIOLENTLY ASSAULTED ME TO STRENGTHEN HIS CASE. PROSECUTOR WILLIAM KELLER HAD A LEGAL OBLIGATION TO TURN OVER EVIDENCE THAT WOULD HAVE IMMEDIATELY EXONERATED ME!

THIS ENTIRE SITUATION IS MALFEASANCE ACROSS THE WHOLE SPECTRUM INVOLVING ALLAN KUSH, LT DAVIS, ANDRONETTE SULLIVAN AND BETH PETERSON AND WILLIAM KELLER AND CANNOT BE DENIED!

THIS IS ABOUT PROTECTING AMERICANS, CHRISTIANS AND JEWS WHILE EXPOSING NEFARIOUS CRIMINAL ACTIVITIES, BIO TERRORISM, ATTEMPTED MURDER, FALSE ARREST, FALSE IMPRISONMENT AND MALICIOUS PROSECUTION AND MORE! WHY? I SAID IF I FIND OUT THEY ARE MONEY LAUNDERING OVERSEAS AND HURTING AMERICANS CHRISTIANS AND JEWS, I WILL HAVE THE FBI RIP THEM UP FROM THE ROOTS.

ALTHOUGH THIS HAS BEEN A LOT TO EXPERIENCE, I GIVE GOD ALL THE GLORY! 

THERE IS POWER IN THE NAME OF JESUS AND MY HEAVENLY FATHER IS GOD ALMIGHTY AND HE BOWS TO NO MAN!

FOR YOU DID NOT RECEIVE THE SPIRIT OF BONDAGE AGAIN TO FEAR, BUT YOU RECEIVED THE SPIRIT OF ADOPTION BY WHO WE CRY OUT "ABBA FATHER". ROMANS 8:15

WE WRESTLE NOT AGAINST FLESH AND BLOOD, BUT AGAINST PRINCIPALITIES, AGAINST POWERS, AGAINST RULERS OF DARKNESS OF THIS WORLD, AGAINST SPIRITUAL WICKEDNESS IN HIGH PLACES. EPHESIANS 6:12

FEAR NOT, FOR I AM WITH YOU, BE NOT DISMAYED, FOR I AM YOUR GOD. I WILL STRENGTHEN YOU, I WILL UPHOLD YOU WITH MY RIGHTEOUS RIGHT HAND. ISAIAH 41:10

2 TIMOTHY 1:7 FOR GOD HAS NOT GIVEN US A SPIRIT OF FEAR, BUT OF POWER AND OF LOVE AND A SOUND MIND.

HAVE I NOT COMMANDED YOU? BE STRONG AND OF GOOD COURAGE; DO NOT BE AFRAID, NOR BE DISMAYED, FOR THE LORD YOUR GOD IS WITH YOU WHEREVER YOU GO! JOSHUA 1:9

ANY SUPPORT IS GREATLY APPRECIATED THANK YOU!

TRIALS OF BETRAYAL

POLK COUNTY DAVENPORT FLORIDA TERRORIST INCIDENT!

TRIALS OF BETRAYAL

THE BETRAYAL OF DEPUTIES AND PUBLIC DEFENDERS!

NEVER GIVE UP!

BLESSED ARE YOU WHEN THEY REVILE AND PERSECUTE YOU AND SAY ALL KINDS OF EVIL AGAINST YOU FALSELY FOR MY NAME SAKE.

MATTHEW 5:11